A Crappy Teacher's Day, LIFE!
“… Shit happens!”
“… Life isn’t fair!”
“… World is cruel!”
We hear these lines from at least one in every three people we meet. Little do we know what exactly happens to that person after his trail of thoughts on the cruelty of the world ends. Every single human being who has outlived these days of their lives, where they have uttered the above lines, have a Story! A story left to motivate and inspire people, to never ever give up! A story to tell the world that every single human being is extraordinary in his or her own way! A story that makes him or her stand out among the rest, yet make him feel a part of every individual on Earth.
There are days when you hit the extreme most low and you vouch that there can never be anything worse! Well, life is playful you see. Life takes up that challenge and presents to you a higher level of superlative degree of worse, in a platter! It is actually moot to say worst every single time, because believe me, it is not the end! The best part is when on a rather good day you sit and contemplate how many of those worse days have you spent and you end up ranking them at times. Nevertheless, one thing that you surely do is, reflect on yourself, on how strong you have been and how you actually overcame the situation and stood by yourself when not a single soul was awake to even hear you sob. You secretly feel proud of yourself and feel inspired by yourself!
Be it the most unexpected break up at the stroke of midnight that left you devastated for more than a couple of months. Be it the most unexpected failure from sheer hard work and dedication that you had put in for the whole quarter of a year. Be it feeling helpless not being able to control a fully planned situation, from crashing in front of your eyes! Which one did it hurt the most, you ask. How do you decide? You resort to the memories of those lows and sort them in descending order of pain and ascending order of the number of people you had to support you, at that very moment. However, what to do in case of a draw?
The break-up from your first love hurts. Puts you through depression. Makes sure you’ve successfully quit eating, thinking, responding, laughing, enjoying, observing and most importantly takes away every ounce of humanly living from you. The only emotion left is that searing pain that rips your heart apart in innumerable bits, that you are convinced, can never be put back. What happens next? You build your own coping mechanisms, knowing that no one would ever be able to help you through this. You recover. You start breathing at first. You smile at the most funny jokes. One fine day, you burst out laughing at some random shit and you realise, maybe it is finally time for you to move on keeping the less searing pain in your heart. Sooner than you expect, life gets back to you and you end up meeting the next epic love of your life, out of nowhere, in a moving train maybe and ends up taking you both to the same place. You remember those broken pieces of heart that was not supposed to ever be put back again? Well, guess what?! They have been put back even before you realised.
You have been super happy for quite some time. Life gets super bored. Well, even life needs some spice and action! Life throws you both apart and lo! There you go dealing with every aspect of long distance. You wait, crave, and literally live, dreaming about that once in eight months meetings! You plan, plan and plan harder. You succeed. You succeed the first time. You may end up succeeding three times in a row and end up getting over confident about your strategies and plans! Ah! Overconfidence! Well, the sooner you understand how Life and Overconfidence are archenemies, the easier it will be to deal with life at large! Life feels it is outrageous, when he sees Overconfidence comforting you. That is exactly when life gets back at you and proves how invincible he is and how vulnerable you are. We are mere puppets dancing to the rhythm of life! You might have the most full proof plan, yet life exactly knows how to shatter it in front of your eyes! And all over again that heart ripping pain comes back and accompanies a dam breaking load of tears.
So, what do you do? You gracefully add this to the list of worse times and start ranking them again. While doing that, you remember how this is just the second worst low in your life and you take motivation from yourself. You go through quotes on Instagram that tells you “Do it because your kids deserve a mother they can brag about.” You think to yourself, “Hell yeah!” Your kids should anyways be proud of you because you are a phenomenal woman, making way through the world all alone, with your parents and numbered faithful friends, who have never ever left your side. You remind yourself, you have to pull yourself back, so that one day you can tell your kids, “Life wasn’t easy for me at all, and it won’t be for you either! But at the end of the tunnel, there’s always been light! So, grab it and live on!”
Ahhh! That light at the end of the tunnel! The human brain is conditioned to carve out contingency plans, automatically, by the time you hit your early 20s. The brain digs up all its folders and comes up with that one piece of information and sometimes even two, that gives you hope for a better tomorrow and soothes you by saying, it’s just a game plan to prepare you, for the worst is yet to come! The heart loses to the brain, ends up hopelessly falling for the life size trap again, and goes to sleep with puffy red eyes.
Happy Teacher’s Day, Life! You’ve been cruel and an extremely shitty teacher, but you’ve taught me how to survive alone! To a life bound relationship! Cheers!
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