Letter to Myself

What if you could hope and wish

And see rocks turning into gold?

What if you could stare at the night sky 

And feel the stars rubbing your back?

What if you could stand alone at the shore

And see beyond the horizon?

What if you could plan the wrong things

And see it all happen before your eyes?

Rocks, gold, stars and the night sky

Shore, horizon, wrong things and expectations;

Just another synonym for your failing expectations

Yet another red cross on your list of things you could have!

Disappointment is the only constant

While you are busy setting up all your variables.

Failing expectations be your que card

Among all your other burning sensations!

What ifs exceed your 'Have' list

The mind draws on a new canvas!

While the cool night breeze brushes your hair across 

The first ray of sunshine builds up new masterpieces!

Only if you could see...

Only if you could see how wrong you are!

Only if you could train your haywired thoughts!

Only if... If you could... 

Turn the coulds into shoulds!

The brain is a tricky place

Your heart overtakes every now and then,

Your thoughts... those bizarre thoughts...

Thoughts that turn into dreams!

Stop expecting; screams the world!

The society throws leads 

Stop planning, your friends suggest

Yet it's your heart that wins!

Your happy place, isn't your comfort zone,

Your failing attempts proves who you are,

Your fake smiles aren't enough

To tame your tricky brain!

Your adrenaline rush makes you squirm

Your blurred thoughts paints new pictures

Those nights when you're wasted

Helps them all, to dream!

Yet you know, you are right

Even though, he's out of sight

Your heart beats faster and 

You run out of words to describe!

So, here's a thought - Don't think so much, 

'Coz it'll only hurt at the end!

Don't speak your heart, 

'Coz vulnerable is your middle name!

Far across those blinking lights,

Scream out to you and say they are yours.

'Coz far across that horizon you see

If you want, will be yours!

The world won't stop and so shouldn't you

'Coz a lifetime isn't enough!

Your heart will beat and skip a few

'Coz it's always fine at the end!

And if it isn't, by now you know

Coping is all you do!

Let the day turn into night and watch the Sun rise

'Coz planning is always moot!

Embrace yourself and protect your thoughts

'Coz only you know their value.

Dreams are real, only if you want,

Don't give up on them, till they give up on you!

You've been so perfect all these years,

Even with that question in your head -

Who are you and what do you want?

Well tread the path as it comes my friend,

'Coz that's what'll count till the end,

And leave that smile on you!

Fake it to the world

But be true to yourself,

Perfection has always been your forte!

Don't kill the zest of searching for your limits

'Coz you know there is no end!

Yet again keep expecting my friend,

Yet again be wild!

They'll tell you to behold all your thoughts

But you keep rising and shine!

They'll tell you, it's all wrong, 'coz that's what they just do!

Yet question, how could you ever be?

It doesn't matter what they say, 

'Coz that didn't ever stop you from what are!

They'll tell you, "Hold back, 'coz you're a girl!"

They'll guide you to what's right!

But how does it matter, what they say,

They weren't there with you, suffering all night!

Fight back every time they hurt,

Fight for yourself!

'Coz that's what you've been doing all years long

You've been a one Woman army!

You've carried so many responsibilities

All this time, all along the way!

Then suddenly why would you doubt yourself 

Just because of what they say?

They'll ask you to hide your tears,

They'll ask you to be nice!

But I'd say cry out loud and let the world know

It's time for you to rise!

So, just once more stand before the abyss

And question yourself, what you want to do?

You're a survivor, you've always been

And trust me, you'll always find a way through!

:)

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